Adi's Life

Tonight I was over at my boyfriends for dinner. It was awesome, I haven't seen him in a few days and even though he's been working long days he cooked for me. I brought some white wine and we had a nice visit with our dinner.

We were chatting away and he brought up the topic of his daughter. She lives in another province and it has been a long time since he's seen her. He wants to have her in his life but circumstances prevent that. I've always known that one day she will be a part of our life and get to be the big sister to our future children. He told me that he has been thinking about it and the only way to get anything done is to move to her and to take action from close by.

I think that he wa a little leary of telling me because he was possibly affraid of my reaction. He was happy to know that I 110% support him and if he decides that the move would be the best thing that I will go with him. I'm 100% sure of our relationship and know that our future together will be great, whether it is here or there.

This isn't something that will happen for another 6+ months, but at least it is something we can talk about and plan together and possibly and new and exciting adventure.

This year for Christmas my sister and myself are doing something a bit different. We decided on this quite a while ago and have started on it.

What we are doing is sponsoring a family. This means we will buy them lots of groceries and Christmas presents for the kids and parent(s). We have been in contact with a lady who does this at an organization in our community. Hopefully in the next couple days she will be in contact with us with the ages and genders of the kids for the family we will be buying for.

We have already started buying non perishable food and are really looking forward to buying toys.

We decided we wanted to do this to give a family in need the type of Christmas we have always had growing up.

We told our family about this and we aren't going to be exchanging presents with them. We told them that instead of buying us anything for Christmas that they can buy something for the hamper. We are going to be making some crafts to give to our family members but that is it. Even my boyfriends mom wants to buy stuff for our family.

I can't wait to go toy shopping and when everything is bought dropping it all off and giving another family some Christmas joy.

This month my aunt hosted a benefit / birthday bash for my dad. She did an awesome job of putting it together.

The night consisted of three bands who all donated their time, drinks, poker, mini putt and raffles. About 400 people came and everyone had a great time.

What a sense of community. All these awesome people coming together to show their love and support to my dad. Not only did they show their support with love and friendship but also by the funds raised to help him out during this tough time.

My dad had a great time and was there almost until the end. I'd say it was one of the best birthday parties a guy could have.

I can't wait til next year when we get to celebrate the big 5-0 for him, although this will be hard to top.

This weekend there was a benefit dance for my dad, more on that later.

While we were at home my boyfriend did something to amaze me and it makes me so happy. He doesn't get to see my family that often, so he took the oportunity of seeing my dad in person to ask his permission to marry me. My dad of course said yes as he knows this is what I want and he likes my bf. No I am not engaged now. He just wanted to ask my dad for when the time is right. I'll get a ring sometime in the next couple of years, wich works just fine for me. It made me very happy that this is something he thinks of and that he has asked my dad in case something does happen.

Today I found out the news. I didn't get the position. Someone who applied had alot more experience and has worked in that department before so she got it. They do like me and think that I would be a good fit for the department and when a position comes available they would like me to apply. So I guess I will just have to keep waiting for my oportunity to come.

I forgot to say my interview on Friday went great! They will decide early next week who they are hiring. She also told me that if I am not the chosen candidate that she would like to see my application again. So that has me really excited because that means she obviously like me. This is one weekend I won't mind going by fast so I can find out! I'll be keeping my fingers crossed, but not getting my hopes up. I know that if I don't get it this time to just keep trying and to keep learning more so I will be more ready for the postition.

Lately it seems my emotions have taken control of me. The last month or so it seems the flood gates have opened. For no reason I will start crying. I'll be going along having a good day and nothing or something insignificant will happen and I just well up. It is really starting to bother me. These things shouldn't be bothering me. Nothing bad is happening and nothing is going wrong it seems my eyes just like to leak. I really hope this stops soon as I really don't know how to deal with it. And once I start it takes me forever to stop because I'll start thinking of things that really do upset me and it just takes longer to stop. 

Any ideas of why my emotions have taken control?