Adi's Life

Happy New Year!!!

Wow, Jamie called me this morning:) It was not even 5min after I had gotten out of bed. He called to see if I'd go out for lunch with him, and since he owed his friend lunch he was going to come to. I didn't really even care if it meant I got to see Jamie. So I told him let me shower and get dressed, yadda yadda. So an hour later he called back and he took us to little bavaria for lunch. It was so good. I'm so stuffed. Now only Jaded Angel will actually know how awesome it is to go to this restaurant for lunch. It is pretty much the nicest restaurant in town. His friend seems really nice.

Jamie still hasn't decided what he is going to do tonight. He might go to the bar since he has a ticket for that, but he doesn't know. He's gonna call me before I go to work to let me know. He said that if he goes somewhere were he doesn't need a ticket for then I can meet up with him after work. He was saying he wants to do something with Matt and Leanna. I'm so hoping he does, cuz then I can see him after work.

He's back in my good books for now.

Well, Jamie ended up calling tonight about half an hour after I wrote the last post. He basically called to apolagize for not calling. Then he said he was gonna eat and call me back. I was nice to him and told him ok. Although I wasn't gonna hold my breath on him calling me back. But guess what, he actually did. I was pleasantly surprised. We chatted for a bit. He wants to go out for lunch tomorrow. He said he'd call in the morning, or if I was up and about and hadn't heard from him to call him and we'd make plans. He also said he would let me know what he decides he is going to do tomorrow night. Maybe this means I will get to ring in the new year with him. That would make me happy. But I'm not getting my hopes too much up, as I don't want to be dissapointed.

It stopped snowing for about half an hour, but a while ago it started again. Hopefully it doesn't snow too much more. I'm already gonna have to shovel around my car from the dumb snow plows so I can get out for work tomorrow.

Someone at the top of the street must work for the highway department. In the last twenty minutes the snow plow has gone by four times! And it hasn't even stopped snowing yet! This happened the other night too. You think they'd be a little more concerned about the main roads, not some dead end street. Not that I'm complaining or anything, but I'm not going to leave my house till I go to work tomorrow night anyways.

My mom says she heard that it is supposed to get to -13 by the end of the week. So I don't think this snow will be going anywhere any time soon. Maybe tomorrow I will go and play in it.

I think it is almost time for me to give up on Jamie completely. We still talk a couple times a day, but I don't ever see him. I have all these feelings for him, but I can't just sit around waiting. So I think that until he figures things out I will still talk to him, but I'm gonna have to stop trying to actually be with him. It is getting me nowhere fast. And obviously there are other guys out there interested in me. The only thing is the sex is so damn good with him, but I guess a relationship does need to have more than just sex.

Again today he didn't call like he said he would. I called him after work and we chatted for a bit, he was gonna eat lunch and said he would call me back after. Well that was around 1 this afternoon. It is now almost 9pm. He did the exact same thing yesterday. And I tried calling him after I had dinner but he didn't answer his cell. Could someone please tell me why guys do this?? Very frusterating.

Wow, it is snowing againg today. I love the snow, it looks so pretty. At least it is a bit lighter this time. On Friday night was our first snow and I was at work, it snowed so hard there were barely any people out. They were cool huge flakes of snow though. And now that it was almost gone, it has started to snow again.

Happy New Year to everyone, since I don't know if I'll be writing again before. I still don't know what I'm going to do after work tomorrow night. I'm usually done around 11:15pm. It seems like nobody knows what they are doing. Maybe I'll just stay at the pub and have a drink and then go home. I guess I'm gonna have to ask everyone while I'm at work tomorrow night.

Hope you all have better ways to spend New Years eve than me.

What a great Christmas. It was so good to see all my family. There were 15 of us christmas eve at my grandma's and 22 people for christmas dinner. It is so much fun with the little kids. I was spoiled. I got the few things I wanted plus lots and lots more. Tomorrow I'm going to have to work at putting it all away.

When will I ever learn? Last night I went to the bar and got totally smashed. We didn't get there till 12 and I drank alot in the two hours I was there. I went with Leanna and we met Matt down there. Jamie didn't come cuz he was in bed early, but he didn't actually know I was there cuz I didn't know I was going out till after work. Me and Leanna bypassed the line since she knew the guy at the door. We did a shooter pretty much as soon as we walked in the door. I think we had three or four while we were there. After a couple drinks me and Leanna danced. Then Matt came and joined us. The I danced with some guy they know name Ricky. He couldn't take a hint, he kept trying to kiss me while we were dancing, but I kept giving him my cheek. Leanna said he was really into me. We danced till the end. I barely even remeber leaving the bar. Me and Matt and Leanna and Ricky all went in Rene's truck to go to some party. Ricky tried putting his arm around me to cuddle me, I was between him and Matt in the back, so I just leaned on Matt. We got to this party and went in. Couldn't really tell you who was there. At this point I totally started to feel the effects of the booze. I was talking to some guy name Jeff, I've seen him at work before. He asked me out for today, but I told him I was working. He's a sweaty. Then I remember him getting my number so he could call me. Now if he does call I'm a bit screwed since I'm already seeing Jamie. But whatever, I obviously don't seem to care. Earlier in the night on the way to this party I had an argument with Matt and Leanna cuz they were saying that I should go for this Ricky guy, he's nice and he could take care of me and that Jamie is unreliable and on and on. I told them that I wasn't gonna go after Ricky cuz I have lots of feelings for Jamie. But even if Jamie wasn't in the picture I wouldn't go for Ricky cuz he totally didn't seem like my type and I'm not gonna go for someone just cuz they could take care of me, there has to be something like there is with Jamie. And I'm pretty sure that Jamie could take care of me. I got home around three in the morning and had to get up at 9 to go to work. I got home around 1 had a nap and then was back at work at 4:30. I'm lucky I was just tired and not really hung over, but that has to do with the fact that I puked when I got home and drank a couple glasses water before going to bed. Man am I tired now though.

K, I said nothing new till after boxing day, but I lied so live with it.

Yesterday after a busy crazy night at work I was looking forward to going home to my nice warm bed. So I finish and have to take my money to the pub. Well, it is so freakin' busy in there that I had to stay and help them. There was barely any room to walk and people just wouldn't move. I started pouring beers and taking people's money. So that makes four, yes four different jobs done yesterday. I left as soon as I had it a bit under control and then asked the girls this morning and they didn't get home till almost 2am.

Merry Christmas!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

I hope everyones christmas is awesome. I'm leaving tomorrow afternoon after work for a couple night. Most likely I won't have another post till after boxing day.

I would write something now, but I'm so hungry my tummy is gonna eat itself if I don't put food in it soon, and I have to go and get ready for my third shift of the day. I can't wait till this night is over.

Went to my family gift exchange tonight. I got a game from my cousin called dirty minds, the game of naughty clues. It looks very interesting. I think with a few drinks it would be really fun.

So I talked to Jamie tonight. He sounded very happy to talk to me. Tomorrow hopefully in the day I will get to see him. I'm working three times, so it may be hard. It was lots of fun trying to explain to him what days I'm working through the holidays and what different things I'm doing with my family. I think he got tomorrow and christmas eve figured out. I guess we will find out tomorrow when I talk to him.

My uncle and aunt got married tonight. It was a really nice ceremony. I don't think there was a dry eye in the house. They got married at a different aunt and uncles house infront of the christmas tree.

Well, time for bed for me, I have an early and long day tomorrow.

Well, he called while I was out, so I guess he doesn't hate me. I tried calling him but he wasn't there.

God, I wish I could iron. Well, I mean, I can, I just really suck at it. All the little wrinkles are gone, but in the process I added some new wrinkles. Oh well, whats a girl to do, if my mom wasn't at work she would do it for me. I guess one of these days I should learn how.

Man am I a sucker for punishment. I went up to the coffee shop that I worked at to take the girls christmas cards today. So I'm chatting with my boss and she is saying how busy it has been and how she forgot to ask someone to come in for two hours at lunch today. So then she says she has to remember to ask the other girl to come in for two hours tomorrow. Then she asks me if I want to. So I say yes, cuz for the two hour shift she just gives you $20 cash. The thing is I work 2.5 hours tomorrow morning in my office and then tomorrow night from 4:30-11:30. I just need to learn how to say no.

Well, maybe tomorrow I'll have a sex story for you all.

3 Sleeps!!!!!

Geez, I'm starting to wonder if Jamie hates my guts or something is wrong with him. K, I'm sure he doesn't hate me, I just tend to make more of some things than I should. I know from my mom, who knows cuz she worked with Leanna saturday night, that Matt and Jamie got back to town around midnight. Well, now I don't expect that he'd call me that late at night, and I wasn't home anyway. I found this out Sunday morning, so I figured that at some point yesterday he would call to let me know he made it back. But noooo, no call:( So I just got home from work a bit ago and still no freakin' call. Now I'm starting to wonder why he hasn't called. And no, I haven't been sitting by the phone waiting, I'm not that pathetic. I wasn't home most of yesterday, but to even know that he tried to get ahold of me would be nice. I would like to see him before I leave on christmas eve so that I can give him his present. And no, I'm not gonna call him cuz I talked to him on Friday and he told me that he would call when they were on their way home or when he got back to town, so I'd say the ball is in his court.

Thank you Jaded Angel for adding the very cool pic for me!!! I love it

Today I went ice skatin with my 11 year old sister. It was such a blast. They have the arena done with all these christmas displays to skate around. Surprisingly neither of us fell. It was best the last 20min when most of the really small kids were gone and not alot of people were left, it made it much easier to go fast without as much worry of plowing anyone over. That was my first time skating in a year. I think my legs will be sore tomorrow.

I went to my dad's christmas staff party tonight. It was fun. I only had a couple drinks so I could drive my car home cuz I have to work in the morning. It is a good thing that I knew I didn't want to drink, some of the people were doing tequila shots and they were trying to get me to have one, but after being sick last weekend from doing them last weekend I just stayed away. We danced a whole bunch. The party was at my dad's new house wich is in pieces, they are remodeling. The kitchen and living room are one big room right now, so it is a perfect party house. This one guy who was there, Dave, man is he hot, too bad he's friends with Jamie so he knows about us. He asked me if me and Jamie are actually together. So many people asked me about him. My aunts were all there and they were all like, oh so you don't have a bf. So I had to explain to each one who he is and were he works.

Tomorrow I get to decorate a christmas tree at my dad's house. That should be fun. It is always a blast to see all the decorations that I made over the elementary school years.

My youngest sister and I spent three hours wrapping presents tonight. And we didn't even finish! We had to stop cuz we were both losing our minds. I couldn't even finish a sentence cuz I was so brain dead. I just kept saying 'you know what I'm trying to say', then she would look at me and be all 'ya sure I do', then we would both burst out laughing. We figured that since we both couldn't comprehend anything we would finish tomorrow.

I think part of the problem was we were not only wrapping our gifts to everyone, but our other sisters gifts to everyone as well cuz there was no way she wanted to help. She has this attitude problem being 14 and all.

To top it off I badly burnt or dinner. I was making pizza and had it going while we were wrapping. After we decided to stop, I was like well dinner should just be about ready, the timer hasn't gone off yet though. So I went to check and opened the oven to a very crisp pizza. Crazy thing is the timer was set for the right amount of time, but it just hadn't gone off. I think the pizza was in the oven for about double the amount of time that it should of bean. We all got a big laugh out of it. And get this, we were so hungry that we all ate a piece. Talk about gross.

Anyways, off to bed for me, I have to get up at 9 for work.

4 more sleeps till I go away for christmas!!!

Work was very very busy tonight. It was good cuz the time just flew, but damn are my feet tired, along with the rest of me.

Jamie called me this afternoon. I've been all smiles since I talked to him. He's so sweat, he does this almost every time he calls, he apolagizes for not calling sooner. I don't mind, I know he's working long shifts and basically sleeps inbetween. Today he was up early though cuz they were going to go to a mall to finish christmas shopping before their shift. He said that hopefully when they are done work Sunday morning they will get to come home, but they still don't know for sure. I hope so cuz I really want him to be home from christmas. And whenever they get off they have a 16 hour drive to get home. Man do I miss him like crazy. He's gonna have to watch it when he gets back though cuz I'm pretty horny right now and am going to have a very hard time keeping my hands off of him. I could almost orgasm just thinking about it.

Some people are so stupid. At work tonight this guy was in who's a regular and very nice, he was looking around trying to figure out witch coffee liquer to buy, this couple comes in and when they are paying the guy whispers to me do you want us to stay for a minute. I was like what, and he nods in the other guys direction, man how ignorant. Just cuz this dude was in his work clothes and dirty and greasy from work doesn not make him creepy in any way. I told them no I was fine, he's a regular and left. And it just goes to show that the slobby looking people are nice, the regular guy give me his change wich is almost three bucks and tells me merry christmas, spend that on your kids. I told him I don't have any, so he says spend it on yourself. I can almost gurantee this guy doesn't have much money to spare, and this other couple who were well dressed didn't even say merry christmas.

People seem to think that lots of my customers are weird, and they may not look the best, but they are usually nice and always have something to say while the nice dressed ones with money are rude and snobby.

This other woman came in tonight, near the end of the night, and I always say hi to people when they walk in, she said hi first, then I say hi, as she walks by the counter she stops, stares at me and gives me this weird look and says hi, I think she thought I didn't say anything to her, so I say hi again and she's just like oh and walks on. Well, when she comes to pay I tell her how much and she just stands there stupidly with money in her hand not giving it to me. I think she is the one who needs to pay more attention.

K, sorry, you pry didn't want to hear all that about work, but those are my stories for the night, and since there is nobody home to talk to, I figured I might as well tell them to all of you. Aren't you just lucky:p

What a waste of freakin' time. I had to go see my heart specialist this morning, and as usual he was behind. I had to wait 45min, that isn't very long considering at times I've had to wait an hour and a half. So I go in and he says that he hasn't go the blood test results back from two weeks ago yet, errrrrrrrr. Why couldn't they call and reschedule my appointment so I could go see him when he had the results. He had the results from the one 6 weeks before though, and he says it looks like things are getting better. Woo freakin' hoo. He actually took my heart rate, normal, and felt my neck, says everything feels normal, and listened to my heart, there are some irregular beats, either and extra one or a missed one, but he says that is fine. So now I have to go for blood tests at the beginning of March and go see him again at the end of March. He says then we should knowif all my treatments worked, and if not then we can set up more. Yippy, I better be getting better, I'm sooo soo sick of doctors. And guess what, Monday I get to go and see my doc. Oh joy, more waiting room time.

Almost time to go pick up the little sis from school. I think after I do that I'm gonna clean my car inside and out. It is pretty dirty.

And since it is Friday, and the last Friday before christmas at that, work should be pretty busy tonight. This will be a nice and welcome change. I get a whole two days off during all the holidays. Chritmas day, and this is only cuz we are closed, and New Years day, I work every day inbetween the two, and I've been working every day up till christmas. It was nice when I got my paycheck today though.

Well, today I went blonde. I got streaks and a cut. I have to say it is the best cut I've had in four months and I went to the beauty school to get it done just so I could save money. I'm sick of paying $25 for a crappy hair cut, so I phoned there and it is $9, so I figured that I could afford that for a crappy hair cut, but it is actually good. Took forever and ever though.

So, when I finally do leave the place and go to my car there is a guy writing up a parking ticket. Best damn way to make my day. He was all like 'don't worry about it' Whatever the fuck that is supposed to mean. So I just hop into my car and start it, can't go anywhere though as he is standing behind my car writing. Of course everyone is looking to see whats going on. But of course, duhhhh I've overexceeded the parking time limit, but what the hell is a girl suppossed to do when she is getting her hair done. So, finally, after what seems like a gazillion hours, although only probably a couple minutes, he comes to my window and hands me a warning ticket. Why the hell do I ask you couldn't he just of told me this is a warning and go on, nooooo, he has to write it down. Along with the 'warning' ticket is another piece of paper says that seasons greatings were giving you a warning, or something along those lines. Geez, and he didn't even get the colour of my car right when he wrote it on the ticket. He wrote dark blue, it is dark purple, at night I would say it looks blue, but this was just after lunch time.

Wow, that feels better getting that out.

6 more sleeps till I go away!!

I heard tonight from my mom, who heard from Leanna, that yesterday she talked to Matt and supposedly they aren't gonna be able to get home till the 26, but they are working on changing this. I hope so. Although I don't really know exactly cuz I haven't talked to Jamie in a couple days. So hopefully they will be able to get home before christmas cuz that would just suck for them if they don't.

Damn, Bryan wasn't working tonight. That definately would of made the night alot better. It was pretty boring. Not many customers. Nobody wants to stop to eat or drink, everyone who is in the mall is there to shop. Oh well, there was a new guy working across the hall and he seems pretty nice, not bad looking either.

I've been doing alot of thinking about moving lately. I'm trying to decide when I should move, where I should move to and what I should do. Damn, I just don't know. I go through all my options and none of them seem to be what I want to do. Errrr, very frusterating. All I know is I got to get back out of my parents house soon, I'm going nutty living here. I think I'm gonna wait till the spring to move though, cuz hopefully by then I will be able to save a bit of money and then I won't have to live completely from paycheck to paycheck. Somedays I wish I could just make up my mind and decide what I want to do.

7 sleeps till I go away!!!!!! Yay, I'm so freakin excited its not even funny!!! I'm like the biggest kid when it comes to christmas.

104 people have been to read this. Yay!! That also makes me excited.

These days even the littlest of things makes me happy. I've even caught myself humming christmas carols as I walk down the street.

Another thing that makes me happy is that tonight I'm working the coffee shop that I work at on again off again, and what makes me happy about this is that Bryan works accross the hall(we're in a mall). And he should be working tonight and we always have good talks. We talk about anything and everything, but mostly about sex.

Wow, finally done my christmas crafts. Never thought I'd get to it. But tonight I made myself sit down and three hours later I'm done.

Our house is starting to smell like christmas. My mom and sisters have been baking gingerbread and shortbread tonight. I love christmas baking. Although I'm gonna have to watch that I don't eat it all.

Wow, I can't believe how many more people are checking this out. Very cool. Makes me happy. Seven more people till I hit 100!!!

Thanx to you all who've left comments! I love reading your feedback.

And thanx to Jaded Angel for promoting me on her site:D

I don't think I was any better this year at my staff party than I was last year. Work last night drug on and on just because I knew I got to get out of there early to go party. So lets compare last years party to this years party......

Staff Party 2002
I was about the third or fourth person to arrive just minutes after 7pm. I had gotten back to town this day after finish all my final exams. I was mentally burned out and ready for some fun. The place that the party was held is upstairs of a electrician business in town, plywood floors, some old couches, and a bar. We have to remember that the booze is free. So I started drinking the moment I got there. Lots of staff past and present showed up. There are alot of people. The music starts and so does the fun. Well, some drinks later we are dancing and someone suggests I dance on the bar. What a wonderfully stupid ass idea. I think it is a great idea at the time. So I hop on up and proceed to get my mom and one of the other girls up there with me. Then it is speech time and gift exchange. So I sit on the bar to listen and watch. I'm very drunk at this point and barely concentrate on the speech being given. Basically it is a slam on everyone who works there. Then we do the gift exchange and I barely remember this either. I got a bottle of Feeney's. Then this is all over and the music starts back up and I get back up on the bar dancing. Well, I have to go to the washroom, so I proceed to get off the bar. Well, this wasn't so successful, I did a faceplant into the plywood floor. Surprisingly it didn't hurt that much at the time as I was too drunk to feel anything. Lets just say that put an end to my bartop dancing. I think everyone thought I killed myself. I ended up with a bruise on my head, wrists and knees. So I went and sat on the sofas and chatted with some people. At this point in my life I had just started sleeping with Jason, who I was going to school with, and really liked him. Well, Robby and me were flirting and he kisses me and we decide to go outside. Well, we decide to walk home cuz we lived relatively close to each other. There was alot of stopping to make out on the way home, lots of touching and feeling. I should say that he is a good kisser and the summer previous him and I had kissed and fooled around a bit. He wanted me to come home with him, till I realized what I was doing and said that I'd better go to my house. He walked me home. The next day I slept well past noon, got up and went to work, feeling great.

Staff Party 2003
This year I worked till 9pm. Then I went to the pub and waited for my mom to close up along with another girl who works there and we car pooled over to the party. This year at the party there are only people who are currently staff at the party. I think there was just over 20 people. Nobody is real drunk yet. So I get there and have a drink and some food. Not long after Ron gives his speech. Very mild compared to past speaches. Still, he made sure to include something about everyone. After this we do the present exchange. At this time I'm only on drink two. I got this very nice garden steak that has little wind chimes and a tea light can be burned in it. I'm very happy that nobody took it from me. This year the party is held at the same place, except there is now a pool table and a fooz ball table too. I was told prior to the party that there would be no dancing on the bar this year. And duhh, you think I wanted to get back up there. I've seen the pics. So were all socializing and a group of us go outside to smoke a joint. This is were my night starts to go wrong. My stepdad is there and he's never seen me smoke pot, he is in the circle, and he tells me that he's gonna tell my mom. Well, this is just as I'm taking a drag and I burst out laughing along with everyone else. I told him to tell her something she doesn't know. So, more socializing and drinking. I'm being pretty good. This is till a few of us decide to do a tequila shot. I hate tequila, but did one anyone. Well, after doing this I'm ready to dance, and no I did not dance on the bar. So some of us girls dance, go out have a smoke, dance some more. Did more tequila shots. I had three in all. Well, I realize I'm starting to get pretty drunk and decide to sit and visit. At this point lots of people already had headed home. Well, once I'm sitting the whole drunkeness really starts to kick in. I decide to lay down on the couch, did this and fell asleep. I got woken up at the end of the night to go home by my boss, his gf, the kitchen manager and one of the kitchen boys. I start to get up, make it across the room to near the top of the stairs and sit. I so felt like I would puke if I moved any farther. So Randi grabs me a bucket and I proceed to puke. My boss and Bryce and to pretty much carry me down the stairs, and put me in Rons car so he can drive me home. I got home about 3am and passed out pretty much right away. I then had to get up and work at 10 this morning. Midly hung over, would have been alot worse if I hadn't of puked. I got home around 1 and had McDonald's. Then I layed down and went to sleep around 3:30 and slept till around 6. I feel fine now, I just need to find something to eat.

At this point I don't know wich is worse. And I don't think I'll ever learn. Right now I feel like I never want to drink again(until next week that is when I have forgoten all the pain).

Wow!! Work was great. I love it when it is busy, and this time of year everyone seems to be in a good mood. My 7 hours there flew by tonight. And near the end of the night this really hot guy who is my age(I know this cuz I had to id him) was hitting on me. I can say that I flirted back a little. And only cuz he's not from here so it doesn't matter. Made my night good.

Tomorrow night at work will be even better. I get to close at nine cuz it is our christmas staff party. But the best part is I get paid till 11:15 cuz the owners don't allow us to have a staff party, so its secret, so we have to sign out for our normal times even though were not there. Sunday night is a good night to get to leave early cuz it is usually pretty boring.

This year at the staff party I'm gonna have to be better behaved than I was last year. In the next couple days I'll write about the staff party last year and let you know if I am better;)

Goddamnit!!! I'm gonna lose a finger at the rate I'm going. Last night something jammed up under my nail while I was searching through the cupboards. It gushed blood for a while. This afternoon when I was moving my tv from my room to downstairs, all in attempt to be a nice sister, I put it down right on the same fingernail. That hurt.

Last night decorating I tried to guilt my mom into getting a christmas tree but it didn't work. The living room just looks so empty without a tree. Although I have to say the rest of the decorations look good.

Jamie called last night. He told me that I'm a really hard girl to get ahold of cuz he's been trying to call to let me know he got to work, but I haven't been home. We only talked for a coupel minutes cuz he was off to go have a shower and go have dinner with the boyz. He said if he had time he'd call me at work tonight so we could talk for a bit. I have nothing better to do at work, so I hope he does.

Wow, can't believe christmas is just around the corner. I get so excited and happy around christmas, I'm just like a little kid. And christmas eve sleep is usually pretty much a write off for me. Especially this year. Every other year we go to my grandma's and lots of the family is there. It is so much fun to be around the little kids. Its fun when there are little ones who still believe in Santa. Although the youngest cousin is 5 and next youngest are both 11. We all still like to pretend. Tonight we are decorating our house. I love christmas decorations and the music. Today I'm gonna start my christmas crafts. Wrapping presents is another thing I like to do at christmas. I wait until I buy everything I'm giving everyone then I sit down and do it all at once. I'll even do wrapping for others cuz I like doing it so much. And christmas baking, mmm, how I love christmas cookies. Except for the fact that every time I go through the kitchen I'll grab one or two. I think I get the most excited about christmas in my whole house. My mom told me the other day that since we are going away for christmas we aren't going to get a tree:( I've been trying to convince her otherwise since, but she's not budging. I love the smell of christmas trees. Best smell in the world:D

Damn am I horny the last couple days. Why oh why do we have to have really awesome sex the day before he leaves??? I'm not complaining about the awesome sex, its just that well, it leaves me wanting more and more and more. But no, he's not here and I have to wait till Christmas when he gets back from work for sex. But damn was sex good the other night. I know I've mentioned it befoer, but its all I have been able to think about in the last two days. Man o man do I have a one track mind or what. He gives the best oral sex that I've ever had. He knows exactly what to do. And his hands. Damn, I'm getting even more horny writing about it. Jeez.

Went to this on Dastardly Deeds its cute.

Woohoo! I'm almost done my christmas shopping. Good thing cuz I'm almost broke. But I don't care, I love buying presents for my family. I must really like Jamie, cuz I just spent almost $100 on him. I've never spent that much on a guy before. But it will be worth it. I think he was the easiest person to buy a present for.

Oh god, I am still so tired and I have to be at work in two hours. It is going to be a hellishly long night. Thank god I have tomorrow off, so I can sleep all day if I want.

Last night was probably one of the best nights ever for sex. I have to say that he is awesome in bed. It was my first time ever being on top really and I discovered that I really like it. Feels so so good and it is fun to be in control and give him more access to my whole body. I wish he hadn't of had to leave this morning cuz I could of spent all day in bed having sex with him. I can't wait till he comes back. He hit spots I didn't know existed before last night. And god is that boy good at going down on me. He just does everything right. :D

I'm so sleepy right now. I slept over night at Jamies, but got to be woken up at 5 this morning when he left. Him and his buddy left at 5:30am today to go wait at the ferries so they could hopefully get on one before noon in case they stop the services. Damn strike. They are driving back to work this time instead of flying cuz it is way too expensive to fly home at christmas and they don't know when their time off starts. Thank god I didn't have to get up that early. I woke up while he was getting ready and said good bye but I went back to sleep. I didn't get up till about 9:30. At least his parents are nice. His dad was home when I got up, so I chatted to him for a few minutes and he offered me coffee. He said that Jamie phoned at 8:30 and were told that they should get on the ferry that is at 10 or somewhere around there.

I wouldn't of wanted to be in the truck with him and Matt. They were both so grouchy and fighting last night about what to do cuz they have to get to work. They fight like an old married couple. It was actually a bit amusing.

Well, time for me to go get dressed and go do some christmas shopping. I hope that I'll be able to get done today.

Well, I was just looking at my visitor activity and how many visitors I have. It is looking like there are two people who are coming to read this on a daily basis. I've had two visitors a day since saturday. Or else there is one person reading this twice a day.

So last night I fell sound asleep on the couch. I woke up about an hour later and Jamie hadn't called me so I called him and he wasn't home yet so I told him that I was just going to bed cuz I was too sleepy to be good company. I think he might of been a little dissapointed but I mean when it is 12 and I'm already asleep I don't like to move too far.

So today I'm gonna go over to his house when he gets home from the dentist and we are gonna lay in bed and watch movies. Sounds like the perfect kind of day. Although I doubt that there will be much movie watching.

I wish that he didn't have to leave tomorrow. It always sucks saying goodbye and knowing I'm not gonna see him for a couple weeks.

Well, not the most successful shopping trip I've gone on, but I did have lots of fun. I got my sisters each a present and that was it. Jamie bought lots of stuff. It was very weird shopping for boys as I live in a houseful of girls. But Jamie has a son so alot of time was spent looking at boy stuff. We went out for dinner with some friends, then did a bit more shopping and came home. Now Jamie went off to visit his brother, then in a while I'm gonna go over there and watch a movie. Although I'm sure that there won't be alot of movie watching happening.

Jaded Angel, your comments aren't working. I don't know if it is just my computer or what, but ya, just thought I'd let you know.

I think they must be expecting it to snow tonight on the highway. They were out there sanding on our way home. It is cold out there, so I won't be surprised if it does.

Man o man I can't wait to sleep on wednesday. All this not sleeping is catching up with me. If Jamie doesn't get back soon, I may end up falling asleep.

Woohoo, I'm happy, I saw Jamie last night. When I talked to him on the phone yesterday out of the blue he said that it was his fault that we haven't seen each other. So last night after work I went and hung out at his house for a couple of hours. It was so hard to leave there. But I had to cuz I had to get to bed, cuz I had to get up for work this morning. I got home around two, the last time I looked at my clock was around three and my alarm went off at 8:30. Damn I'm tired.

Now, I'm just waiting for him to get ready cuz we are going out of town christmas shopping. Should be fun, except I have to do all the driving.

Work was a bit scary last night. This guy came in and bought some beer and left. So a couple hours later he comes back in. I didn't think twice about it cuz lots of people come twice in one night. Well, he just comes up to the counter. I'm helping someone else and thought well he is pry getting cigs or something. Well when the other guys leaves he's like "Hi I'm Glen", he is at least as old as my dad, I'm like ya?? At first I think that he is gonna rob me or something the way he is standing there with his hands in his pockets. But no, he asks if I want to go for a drink after work. EWWWWWWWWWW. I told him no very firmly and he left. I was shaking for a while after that.

Oh the joys of working in a beer and wine store.

Ok, I'm now just about ready to give up on this boy. We chatted for a while today when he got home from the dentist. We couldn't really get together in the afternoon cuz by the time we had talked I had to go and get ready for work. He didn't know what he was gonna do tonight, so he said either he'd call me at work, or stop by if he was out, to say hi. Well, closing time rolls around and no sign of him. So I thought that maybe he could possibly be at the pub next door with friends. Saddly he wasn't. I'm very dissapointed. He knows I wasnt to see him and he says he wants to see me, but errrrr. This seems to be a reacurring pattern. Problem is, I won't just walk away from him cuz I really like him alot. More than I've ever like any guy. And the sex is great. But it sux that on his week home last time and this time I don't end up seeing him till at leas the end of the weekend and he leaves for work on Wednesday and then he won't be back till Christmas. I just don't know what to do. It is really playing with my emotions. I get all mad, but then he'll call a day later and as soon as I hear him it is like nothing is wrong.

So if anyone has some advice for how I should deal with this that would be great. And yes I could talke to him, its just that as said I don't really ever get to see him:(

Pretty uneventful day for a day off. I slept in again. This is coming quite a habit for me lately. It is really going to suck tomorrow when I have to get up and be at work for 9.

The reason Jamie didn't call last night was cuz he didn't get back to town till around 11:30. He called this afternoon. We aren't doing anything tonight I guess cuz he didn't call me back and I just called his house and he is out. He said that him and a couple of the boyz were pry going out to drink, but he wasn't sure and said he'd call me later today. Well he didn't. I hate it when people do that. He seems really good at it sometimes. Chances are I won't see him tomorrow either cuz I work 9am-1pm and 4:30pm-11:30pm. So, unless he will meat me for a drink after work, then I'm pry not going to see him till sunday or monday. Oh well.

Nothing else new and exciting. So I guess I'm gonna go and have something to eat since I haven't really had dinner and then head off to bed and try and get a full nights sleep.

Took my little sister to see the movie Elf tonight. I liked it, very funny, with a good ending. My sister thought it was a great movie. One of the greatest benefits of having really younger sisters is getting to go see movies geared towards kids and doing other great kiddish stuff that would seem stupid to do otherwise. Boy am I going to miss this when they grow up. I can't wait to take them to see the cat and the hat. They have already seen it when they were out of town a couple weeks ago, but they both said they would come with me to see it. Hopefully it gets to our theatre soon.

I have to say that today was one of my most eventful days off in a long time. My mom took me out for lunch, then we went shopping and I actually got a couple christmas presents. I also now have some ideas of what to get my mom. I also bought myself a new shirt and vest, wich my mom harassed me about, saying I'm not supposed to buy myself stuff this close to christmas, but when each was $10 I couldn't resist. Then I had to go and get blood tests. I'm getting sick of having to go to the hospital. At leas today I lucked out because when I got there there was nobody else, so I walked in and was out a few minutes later.

Well, Jamie hasn't called, but I'm assuming he must be in town now, unless he ended up getting the 2:30 flight instead of the 1, then there is the possibility of him getting home around now. And he may not call if he gets in late. And since his brother was picking him up they probably went for a beer. I guess I'll find out tomorrow. But I still have to wait for him to call cuz on his first night home he usually sleeps until the afternoon and I don't want to wake him up. So heres to another sleepless night.

Last night I went to bed shortly after 1am, read till almost two and the last time I looked at my clock it was almost 3. I then proceeded to wake up a bazillion times. I actually got a couple hours straight sleep late this morning and got up at 11:30am. I hate sleeping that late. Feels like half the day is wasted. I think the not sleeping is the excitement and anticipation of seeing Jamie. I've never lost sleep over a boy before.

Well, I'm off to bed to try and catch some winks.

Well, I was reading Quality Control and he had this quiz that he'd done, what colour are you. So I decided to give it a go. Here are the results

you are lightcyan #E0FFFF

Your dominant hues are green and blue. You're smart and you know it, and want to use your power to help people and relate to others. Even though you tend to battle with yourself, you solve other people's conflicts well. Your saturation level is very low - you have better things to do than jump headfirst into every little project. You make sure your actions are going to really accomplish something before you start because you hate wasting energy making everyone else think you're working. Your outlook on life is very bright. You are sunny and optimistic about life and others find it very encouraging, but remember to tone it down if you sense irritation.

the spacefem.com html color quiz

What a great day today! Jamie called me this afternoon when I was getting ready for work. It made me happy the whole entire night. He's coming home tomorrow!! He's gonna call me when he gets to town. Tomorrow is probably gonna be the longest freakin' day of my life. He is so sweet, he said he was sorry he didn't really call me much from work, but not really a big deal since he works 12 hour shifts and doesn't have a cell, so he has to use someone elses. His other reason for calling was to say that he isn't going to need me to go and get him from the ferry since his brother is working nearby and will just hang out after work and wait for him. That will be nice since it is just over an hour drive and I'm sure there is snow on the highway as it goes through the mountains and it has been pretty damn cold here the last few days.

Other than that my day was pretty bland. Got up, drank coffee and watched tv all day till I had to get ready for work. I just couldn't motivate myself to do anything.

Work was work. It was busier that the last shift I worked, but it still just isn't as busy as it is in the summer. I get alot of reading done there. Nice and relaxing. Although when I was stocking the shelves tonight I had a bit of an accident and a big mess to clean up. I was stocking the beer and when I was taking a six pack out of the box I guess on of the bottles got caught on the opening of the box, it jumped out of its case, fell to the floor, the cap flew off and there was beer everywhere. What a joy to clean up. lol. Kinda funny actually. I'm glad it was at the end of stocking cuz the cooler sure stunk like beer when I was mopping it up and thank god I didn't have to go back there again. And tonight I made a whopping $.95 in tips, woohoo*rolls eyes*

One sleep!! Yay. Tomorrow Jamie comes back from work for a week. I can't wait to see him. I miss him so much wich is strange since I haven't known him for that long. Seeing him will be great since I've only got to talk to him once in the last two weeks. He works in camp on oil rigs, away for two weeks, home for a week.

Wow, can't believe its already the third of December. Man, it seems like October just started and now its December. I guess I'm going to have to start getting ready for Christmas. I love Christmas so much. Especially this year, we're going to my Grandma's and a whole bunch of the family will be there wich is so much fun.

Well, time to go have coffee and wake up. I like this new job working at the beer and wine. I don't start till 4:30, so I can sleep in and do whatever I want all day. Another job that I had been filling in for cleaning at a pub I had to get up at 5:30am, wich was just a bit too early for me. But thank god I'm done that, I'll only have to work there again if someone takes some time off.

Woohoo!!!!
Thanx so much to Jaded Angel, she's helped me so so much setting this all up tonight. Yay!!

So, I was thinking, you all might want to know a little about me. So, this will just be a brief bit on me, then when I start writing it will be more about my life.

Anyways....
Age: 21
Location: BC
Sex: I love it!! (Oh ya, I mean I'm a girl)
Occupation: too many to list (my main job right at the moment is at a beer and wine)
Education: Business Diploma
Relationship Status: Well, umm...I've been seeing this guy...but I'm not quite sure if we're actually a couple or not....we haven't really talked about it.

Well...that is really all I can think of at this moment....as it is getting late and my eyes are starting to close.

Welcome to my life!! I hope you have fun reading about my life.

I've been reading a whole bunch of blogs recently and have decided to start one of my own. Some people may find it interesting, others may not, so if you don't then don't read it, I could really care less.

Jaded Angel is my best friend :D and it is cuz of her that I am starting.

Happy reading